Today is your birthday, the first turn around the sun you were not here to see the completion of. I sent letters to your mom, your wife, and P. Everything I write, say, think feels so useless. I cried and cried, staining the envelopes. How I miss you, such a strange thing to say when we only spoke or saw each other every few years but it is true. I didn’t realize how much I was relying on you to be in the world as long as me. I reached out to TM. I told her I’d welcome a chance to reminisce about you. I was scared, thought she would feel like it was weird. Maybe she doesn’t know I know you two dated after our divorce. I was surprised when I heard about the trip to Brazil with M. and T., why I’m not sure. Did you stay in our old place, the one you got in the divorce?
happy birthday
happy birthday
happy birthday
Today is your birthday, the first turn around the sun you were not here to see the completion of. I sent letters to your mom, your wife, and P. Everything I write, say, think feels so useless. I cried and cried, staining the envelopes. How I miss you, such a strange thing to say when we only spoke or saw each other every few years but it is true. I didn’t realize how much I was relying on you to be in the world as long as me. I reached out to TM. I told her I’d welcome a chance to reminisce about you. I was scared, thought she would feel like it was weird. Maybe she doesn’t know I know you two dated after our divorce. I was surprised when I heard about the trip to Brazil with M. and T., why I’m not sure. Did you stay in our old place, the one you got in the divorce?