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Then He Died
This is my grief journal.
By Banshee · Launched 10 months ago
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The blood moon
“The risk of love is loss and the price of loss is grief. But the pain of grief is only a shadow when compared with the pain of never risking love.” — Hilary Stanton Zunin
May 17
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Mortar
Almost a year now, exactly a year next Tuesday. It’s still so hard to believe. We were supposed to get old, together though on separate tracks, like two trains running parallel. I actually thought this though of course we were no longer a ‘we’ but a they, which is a we that once…
May 15
3
On mom and dad outliving you
Mom turned 84 yesterday, we talked on the phone for a good long while. She told me about their trip out to the apple farm where she and dad bought all kinds of goodies like a couple of little kids - cheesy crab dip and blueberry jam and a little bag of caramel popcorn and ten…
Jun 24
1
Back at the old place
Your mom called to tell me, R is selling the old farmhouse. She wanted to know if I wanted our old wedding album and a box of old pictures. Then there is the matter of our furniture from the last two places we lived. I kept some but the rest was shipped out to the old family…
Mar 27
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Day 129
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Happy 34th Anniversary
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Monitoring the phone
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Mortar
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Day 172
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Why I Can Never Live in Beaverton
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Grief is a club with the world's worst initiation rite
P. got together with three friends for your shared birthday celebration and they all shared memories. The picture M. sent hurt my heart, your absence…
Mar 11
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Monitoring the phone
This time last year I had my phone with me at all times, and carried an extra charger. I checked it every time a notification came in. I’m sure it…
Mar 5
3
About a year now
After a few weeks of thinking every once in awhile, hmm, I haven’t cried or felt sad in awhile maybe that part is behind me, and with sleeping through…
Feb 24
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Just when you think
Right after I think I’m moving to some new phase the old waves circles back to swamp me, slamming me into the surf with a mouthful of sand as if to warn…
Feb 19
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These things I know, and keep
I haven’t been crying as much. I think I’m getting over losing you. I don’t think you’d mind. Today I went for a motorcycle ride, pillion behind my…
Feb 15
3
happy birthday
Today is your birthday, the first turn around the sun you were not here to see the completion of. I sent letters to your mom, your wife, and P…
Feb 4
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finding your hat
Last night I pulled a box down from the top shelf of the hall closet, where I keep all my hats. Digging through all the soft wool, I found two old…
Jan 5
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a light in the dark
When I wrote to you two years and one month ago, we hadn’t spoken in awhile. I was in a bad place, having recently lost my income and a longtime friend…
Dec 30, 2021
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Day 129
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Happy 34th Anniversary
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Monitoring the phone
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Mortar
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Day 172
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Why I Can Never Live in Beaverton
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